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i was just going to ask everyone to get another round of applause, thanks for being honest. i just want to remind everyone we do have books on sale around the corner, support local business women and children first and we will have a book signing. [applause] he will have a book signing and photos at this table here. thanks so much. [applause]
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her career as a film producer and television executive. she recently spoke at the fest. this is one hour.
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>> [inaudible conversations] hello, everybody. can you we are super
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excited and it's taking place april 29 it is a full day of readings and book signings and workshops we hope to see a lot of you here and in addition, we also produce special events like today in which we feature one outstanding author of. overseeing the development of more than 1,000 documentaries for hbo and cinemax. as an executive producer, she has received 32 awards from a 3s and documentaries and 42 george foster peabody awards. [applause] during the tenure of the
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acclaimed documentary have gone on to win the 26 academy award. she'she has been honored with numerous achievements. the awards tribute and has made it to the school of arts honoree. let's watch some of her recent work.
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♪ is it not a speak of [inaudible]
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♪ ♪ special meaning in this why we are here today to share the joy and happiness that my brother felt, my friends and coworkers and neighbors of having the opportunity. i love him probably more than i love myself and i would give anything for him i would put his needs ahead of my own.
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i feel like i can create my own world and everything is based on [inaudible] there is no way of telling what i would be like. i wish i could ride any roller coaster i wish to ever. i wish them even though i'm terrified of them it would be cool if i could try them. i didn't put myself in front of you to have to feel bad for me. i put myself in front of you so you know you don't need to feel bad for me because this is how i want you to know me. this is my life and this is a part of it, it's not a major
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part of it, it is just part of it. >> [inaudible] do you ever want a dad? you know what happened to my mom, died. my husband was a dad and grandpa who didn't know how to cook. [laughter] do you think you will get married and have kids? [inaudible] somebody told me of scientology and you should give them all of your money [inaudible]
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my goal wasn't to write an exposé, it was simply to understand scientology. i was interested in skeptical people who worked on in the belief system and wind up acting on those beliefs in ways that they never thought they would. [inaudible]
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♪ [inaudible] [speaking in native tongue]
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[inaudible] i remember the moment i finally realized what i was, i was an amputee from the war. i hope they will love me for who i am. i won't be able to pick up my son or daughter with two arms. i won't --
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[inaudible] no one knows who he is but he's been around for quite some time. i have to say something, everything about it is appealing. [laughter]
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[applause] what an honor it is for me to introduce the woman behind these and so many other documentary films. ladies and gentlemen, sheila nevins. [applause] >> there's so many of you. i didn't know where i am. thank you, claudia, and all of you for coming. i didn't do all of these by
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myself. i have been lucky into the and devoted. i've spent 35 years working on documentaries, and i've come up for a breath and here i am. part of coming up for this breath and part of the sorrow we have worked on for so long didn't have an effect on me in the sense that i saw what you saw maybe times a thousand. i've been around a long time and i decided that it was time to go. so march 31 is my last day at hbo. i have paychecks i figured out this morning. when you grow up without any money you never don't say thank you when you get paid.
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paid. a colleague said when you get your last check are you finally going to not to say thank you and i said no because when you get paid doing what you love to do it hurts sometimes. i gave a lot and i got a lot, so here i am at the end of my career looking for another. does anybody have any jobs? [laughter] >> [inaudible] i hate sports. [inaudible] i wrote a book and i'm here to
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sell the book. i've done shows in las vegas where some of my friends are, but i've never been here before i'm so sorry. can you return them? [inaudible] i thought i would do two things i would read two stories, and if you don't mind, i thought appropriate for a facelift story [inaudible] [laughter]
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i'm pretty honest about it. you don't look like this at 78 unless you've been tortured. [laughter] okay. i don't look 78. facing facelifts, this is the first story in the book. doctor baker, i said, i look awful. he looked at me with a tragic smile and say we can do is lift, you will be just fine. and this was 20 years ago. i am 56 i said it's about time, don't you. he put his arm around me and said it's time. [laughter] is there anything less invasive than a facelift? we will pick you up, you will
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look seven years younger and how long will that last i asked, seven years he said. he gave me a hand near her under the brightest lights and said that defy times eight. i got dizzy and started to gasp. there was no way out. i looked like a squashed up face and it spoke to me whispering in my ear it said without any doubt you are not at the fairest in the land, you are not fair at all. you could do and i left and tell them at work that you are going on a vacation. okay. i will do my eyes and face. i wanted to get it over with.
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how would i face myself with a new face and also why hasn't anyone told me. then again, not everyone had fluorescent lighting. most of my age-appropriate friends said i looked pretty good because let's face it, they had age relating vision. my heart was racing. was on a brave enough to go through with this superficial scalp and to make matters worse, i told the driver to slow down and he took it personally and said he hadn't had an accident in 20 years. i explained with my regular excuse i thought i might be pregnant. [laughter] team looked in the rearview mirror, and this is the truth. he said you don't look like you
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could be pregnant. okay, doctor baker, this is it. the driver must have been a planned for the cab was too easy to get. he publicly owned the taxi company. we laughed a little bit and i told him he was right. i admit it and told him i was 48. lying about increasing members had become numbershave become ay day life. i remember the days i asked them to slow down because of my pregnancy and taxi drivers would ask me to congratulate me and ask if it was a boy or girl and now i have to lie even more. i hav have to lying at work abot going on a vacation. but there was no other choice. it was now or never. this was the time to eradicate the old me. i knew it, i must be one agent i picked 61. this is where i would stay forever.
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i worked in the media. they wanted a young audience. had it occurred to them that an older rain good thing smart and i thought most in any case i have to hide my age and for those that knew the true number they must be read first to say you don't look your age, that might give me comfort. you thought it would be over. you don't look your age. that might give me comfort. i told my husband and my son about my upcoming operation. she assured me of my eminent death by surgery. [laughter] it's ridiculous, my son said, you look like michael jackson. [laughter] my husband said you look just fine the way you are.
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okay, i said, but i'm not young enough. i'm not young enough for the rest of this world. while waiting for this miracle, my college 40th reunion arrived. i opened the door and walked in. all of the ladies glared at me through thick glasses. i closed the door quickly and hd thought this was the wrong room. haven't they heard of contacts? ladies with advanced degrees and high iqs. this is the place brains were supposed to be more important than beauty. i pretended that was true but i never bought into that philosophy. ...
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>> do this to herself anyway? ten, nine, eight, seven, i woke seven hours later alive with swollen eyes and i puked i was given green apple juice and a paper cup with saltine
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crackers and a nurse to take me home it was a package deal. nurse ratchet eyed me. [laughter] she looked at me as if i was foolish and frivolous. and watching the blood from my eyes she has seen it all. disdainful and knew how shallow i was. this face was black and blue. the punishment was severe and i spent a lot of money on it. i informed the office i was on vacation where? haiti. and they laughed. the staples were removed the stitches pulled the face
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refreshed at a price to dear to explain. do i look better? i returned not with the timbre light yellow and blue streaks they knew i was a workaholic so where was i been? i made an announcement i got a facelift. nobody seems surprised i went public in and out of every office you didn't need it. you are so beautiful. you look ten years younger you can count on these lies but with these extra seven years came the inexplicable feeling of why not try more? try to go against the magnifying mirror to be satisfied my appearance every wrinkle of sesame i was known
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to bend into a mere of a strangers car it seemed one side looked younger than the other so i finally understood someone who said this is my profile shot left side only. but a temporary assistant on friday who had purple punk hair to match her name and tattoos all signifying a revolutionary cause was assigned to me at the end of the day she had a golden ring in her lip this assistant signify to me something we had in common. i said you did a great job i'm sorry that i worked so hard she said she was in her last year of college she wants to devote her life to saving species from extinction the
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planet was blowing up and i said i was part of the march on washington in 1863. i. i still have some of the posters. and she said that as if i was involved in lincoln's assassination. [laughter] i told her fish had calories you are an honest kid you tell it like it is. how old do you think i am? he said he remind me of my mother. i don't know? i said close enough devastated. i turned 57 that very week so who was i fooling? the taxi driver knew i was not like a child and she thought i was like her mother she said
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by the time i'm that old there probably won't even be a planet is that how you feel about yourself? i feel bad about the world that helps me to feel good about myself she was selfless and i'm selfish so she went off to save the world i powdered my face with a little more passion than usual so did i feel better? yes and no. yes for the camouflage but no because who was i fooling? and yet disturbingly the girl at the office called my dermatologist i said i need some refreshments botox i have a line on the side of my lip she said i will see if he can
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take you can you come right away? yes. i can be there in 20 minutes if i can get a cab. so i jumped into a cab i didn't even pretend i told the guy i had a bad back he asked what i did for a living once upon a time they asked me if i was an actress so i said real estate he looked in the mirror i thought you were an actress. look who i fooled. of all the beauties he thought i might have looked like he said i know who you are. you are judge judy. [laughter] i gulped. you really are judge judy? i said i swear i'm not. >> yes you are. really. i'm not. alrighty then but i know the truth.
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the verdict was out i was fooling nobody. i was alive but the bottom line was a metronome ticking in my head i never heard before. maybe doctor baker implanted that or wound it up or maybe i was crazy i rushed into the dermatologist office and not waiting for the new fix no matter how much it cost or how much it hurt and i was fooling no one. [applause] any questions? or the doctors number? [laughter]
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>> have you had further procedures? >> yes. [laughter] how many? but i do look pretty good i had a lot of botox. i am vain and superficial princess. who isn't? i don't know. some people. good people maybe. are you vain? you are very handsome. is the scarf to cover the wrinkles in your neck? you must be 20. i knew there was a reason.
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>> i could write another book. i could relax i don't want to smell the roses i hate roses i could be good to my friends but i'm afraid i will get bored. what do you do? are you ever bored? so the other side? i get it. i don't know. it is a great question stay active? if you think then something terrible happens? yes? what? how do you know? you are working. >> if you didn't he would be
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depressed? >> okay. why you coming towards me? i got scared. [laughter] i am from new york. >> if you produced a documentary was there a certain genre you like to work with her would gravitate towards? >> that is a good question. because i had wounded mother she had a serious case with many petitions i think i was going backwards and looking for other people who her to empathize i don't really know. you a psychiatrist?
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[laughter] but i really do think that i am wounded and i am fine and i think that keeps me going but i also do things like cathouse real sex and g string diva and taxicab confessions and i want to laugh and sex and sexuality was a way to laugh but i think that my heart is in sorrow. >> do you have a favorite documentary? be my people always ask me that question. in my day i probably had a
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serious case of add that i think moved into tunnel vision in the sense that i am so obsessed what i'm doing at a particular time that i love it to death then when it is over i love the next one. so i don't know if i have a very, very favorite. i really don't like asking if you have a favorite child. that is almost impossible. >> i love your documentary series i had hbo for years but
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my question is living with all the other stuff or only trying to get to that level of profession where you are at it must be a documentary of itself? >> maybe i don't want to make that should i tell that in front of all these people? i have a lot of tales to tell i really do. i was complicit in the 60s i knew my bosses could help me and i knew that i was attractive and flirting and occasionally more or sleeping with them would help and it did it did not scar me but now as an older woman, i don't feel regret i feel sad that i
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didn't know i was using myself incorrectly. although i'm not really a part of the movement i read the book like it was a bible listen to his tales and understand him go home with him and i did it. i wouldn't be here today otherwise i don't know i think i represent that. like madman represent. of that and the women of the workforce college in 1963 and i was determined to succeed and what you claim to the latter then is listen to helen brown. and then as and that women like gloria steinem and working with feminist that
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demanded a certain kind of separation for equality i think i felt justified what i had been and done and i would say never mortified but somehow enlightened about the next generation. that is as honest as i can be. [applause] inequity ms. james. >> are you my father? you have the same name i have. [laughter] >> if we got married would you call yourself sheila nevins? [laughter] >> i have to think about this like talk about women using their maiden name?
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what do you want? [laughter] what you asking me? >> will you marry me? >> i'm already married i love ireland. >> in your biography yes i'm jewish i'm from russia my father is an immigrant. >> more serious note. >> to listen to women? she just asked me that question. [laughter] [applause] did you just asked that question? that is what men do. i like you. you bought my book but i just answer that asked me another
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question now i would not call myself nevins nevins and i will not marry you. [laughter] [applause] >> how did you make a decision? >> why couldn't i do both? >> was there any decision you have to make? >> always. >> i don't know you have to give me the project and have to tell you what i fought for. everything was a fight. but in the beginning there were not as many documentaries in the market as there are now so we could do any more than we could now but how do i decide?
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two out of four. >> i get red-faced but you got me on that one. >> because your irish. >> so with the documentary has anything negative happened to you that you feel you should not have opened a can of forms or to go into that or something bad could happen? >> no. scientology was tough. i was a little scared about that. and i had a reason to be scared. the word troll is used in
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social media there was always a troll thing that you misrepresented to the subject that was close to their heart. one man would throw acid in my face because i did taxicab confessions a man with the turban they call him towel head. so there was a whole social media this was the beginning like ten years ago and said if you see her throw acid at her. but not usually that they said thank you for talking about tourette or heart transplants are what we go through in syria. so it depends the mood i am in which scares me less or more. it was not an easy job maybe i
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should not have been doing sex programming like real sex or cathouse in las vegas but i met some of the greatest women there and i had no problem with the legalization of prostitution i now it showed a lot of stuff but i felt that i was right and it was worth airing and who knows who is right but the drive out here scared me. [laughter] i was scared. i really was. i don't think he had ever driven here before. [laughter] he was a bartender clearly worked late the night before. [laughter] but that's okay we got here. so these are my friends and they are with me. >> you are young.
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>> you look brilliant. >> she was really. >> i would marry her. [laughter] but you are so young. >> i know the audience is older but saying things that nobody should hear. >> i do think of my audience is older but if you watch the taxicabs you never did? because you are older than a millennial. you do? hoosier doctor. [laughter] >> maybe we should be friends. [laughter]
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was your sister? >> nancy parker. >> i know her. did she marry somebody else? good for her. we need to have a private conversation. [laughter] thank you but in truth i don't know who wrote that article and i was mortified of maureen dowd and we spent so many hours together she never asked me a question and i even rehearsed the night before you did this you did that you bought this and i was so rehearsed and she was not like that at all she was a terrific writer and is really something else she is scary but terrific.
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>> a lot of things are scary and terrific like being here. [laughter] >> if you want to know a translation of taxicab confessions i do look younger but working with the videographers who were mostly men and editors and over the course of a number of years we make these documentaries and the changes that the fast edits. >> so the question is with technology are there highlight?
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>> i can answer. the technology has made for the volume of course they will give me the credit for the explosion but the technology has become cheap if you are going to shoot something about for every minute see there is a 70 minute shot but you were burning footage and it is expensive but what has happened because now the footage you can record over video now it is a fast way to make it happen there is a a plethora of documentaries out there so therefore that is the change in the business. why do we meet for coffee? so then you can about sex and violence. [laughter] thank you.
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>> our children are here. [laughter] the neck i am 16. >> they let you win? >> i am a videographer i consider myself a feminist so what is your advice so what is your advice men will have changed so i was there talking to the woman and at the end he said this is a part-time job a guy hits on me at my other job what should i tell him? i never had an opportunity to tell anybody anything so i
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said i think i would tell him his i'm disappointed in you. i really thought you could teach me something about this business and we could do something good but you disappoint me when you talk like that. so three or four weeks later i forgot the conversation but she sent me an e-mail and said it worked and he backed off the maybe the result is you can talk back gently. but unless you are matt lauer. [laughter] but let's be fair what about michelangelo? because he painted david incorrectly said be careful but on the other hand you are
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born in the right time you can talk back soon you'll be be 17 and 18 and then you are 80. [laughter] and then you have to find a new doctor. [laughter] it does take courage to be 16 and ask a question you are guts gutsy. >> my question is what gets you most excited in the morning? >> other than the alarm clock? and what keeps you up at night? >> to tell a story gets me up in the morning i get excited about ideas although i'm not
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sure exactly how to portray them of all the horrible things that are happening in those children keep me up and how to help them i've done a million shows about gun control that is why only fly delta and united. [applause] i thank you have to support the people and so for the first time i see a light in the tunnel there was no light before. yes that does me up at night because i wanted is like to send kids in the school in the morning you're wearing that it told you not to her that and then you never see your kid again. that keeps me up at night and we went to school the door was
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open that kept me up last night. >> is this a happy question? >> first there is a story about tourette's heavy read that yet? i will read it to you. >> is it a bad case? to have involuntary verbal sounds and tics that can go from one through town like a diagnosis of cancer depending on how severe it is now he is
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29 but he was a child in constant motion and now? but tourette's is also an impulse disorder so now he works and even laughs about it. >> good. >> it is and portend that you all know the cochlea 5% of the kids say that but yet i have tourette's but it doesn't have me because i want people to understand that is very attractive to the media because you can say dirty
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words on television and you are not guilty but most of that is attention deficit and hyperactivity and winking and blinking but he has a job and he is good. he imitates and mimics? >> do you have other children? >> know but my question is. >> that wasn't the question. [laughter] >> then you didn't read the story yet. because you have seen so much darkness through your childhood you still consider yourself hopeful? >> no. >> no. i am positive i try to make the best at it but i don't
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think i am hopeful because i have been around for a while and i think things have gotten worse from 911 on i haven't really been a hopeful person and living in new york making a film about it. but i am positive and eager and i laugh and they tell jokes i'm good at standup. [laughter] and then just do standup? >> we have time for one more question.
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>> are there documentaries that you worked on there was a problem in that significantly changed the situation? >> that is a good one to end on i can never change the world but i can budget i don't mean i but us to show that it is hard for people and difficult to be gay especially with prop eight i love those people there a lot of them in their but it is hard i thank you nudged the world a little bit you see something you didn't see before you saw people who almost got asset in their face you see a kid and sammy died about a year after that film in both of his
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family -- parents were doctors you study the arteries and arthritis all these things he had at 15 years old he was so positive listen to the ted talk with sammy if you want to feel blue but he was an old man. did it change anything but it did get a big check from someone that we influence people not to look away from difference is something i can do do not be afraid of someone if it isn't just like you even if it is something like tourette's or gayness and i thank you very much 17.
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>> she will be signing her books in a few minutes so form a line and thanks for coming today she is fantastic so another round of applause be 17. [applause] [inaudible conversations]
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>> i am passionate about doctor long --dash d12 it is not a democratic or republican issue it is a human rights issues. >> so talking about climate change the notion where the only country not on the climate accord is a travesty every other country recognizes the effects but currently we have not stayed on course with the other countries. >> we are the richest nation in the world yet we will go bankrupt trying to cover basic healthcare cost and that is an
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outrage and we should be ashamed [inaudible conversations] >> good evening i'm the vice president and coo

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