world news is next. tonight the abc news exclusive. one-on-one with the former secretary of state, hillary clinton. public and private. from the unevading firestorm over benghazi. >> i wonder if people are looking for a sentence that begins from you, "i should have, i should have." >> and what about running in 2016? has she really not made up her mind? and also, marriage crisis and what she says about forgiveness and survival. tonight hillary clinton, nothing off limits. >> deadly rampage. we go into the couple behind the shooting spree in las vegas. and a hollywood surprise. the real-life story of one girl that inspired the first surprise hit of the summer.

a good evening to you on this monday night. we begin with an exclusive. the most talked about woman in america. former secretary of state hillary clinton. on her decision to run for president or stay in private life. tomorrow her new book "hard choices" will be in stores. but she talks about an issue that could play a decisive role in any future campaign for president, benghazi, and what about raising questions about leadership and she thinks she could have done or should have done before her friend/ambassador chris stevens and three other americans lost their lives. >> reporter: is there anything you personally should have been doing to make it safer in benghazi? >> well -- what i did was give very direct instructions that the people who have the expertise and experience in security. >> reporter: but personal -- you

personally -- >> -- well, that is personal though, diane. and, i mean, i am not -- i'm not equipped to sit and look at blueprints to determine where the blast walls need to be or where the reinforcements need to be. that's why we hire people who have that expertise. >> reporter: i wonder if people are looking for a sentence that begins from you, "i should have, i should have." we saw your face on that tarmac. something that said i should have done this differently. i would give anything on this earth to personally, if i have -- could have done this differently. >> well, i certainly would give anything on earth if this had not happened. and i certainly would wish that we had made some of the changes that came to our attention to make as a result of the investigation. but i also am clear in my own mind that we had a system and

that system, of course, ended with me, but i take responsibility, but i was not making security decisions. >> reporter: after two years, and all those hearings, all those documents, republicans in the house have now announced yet another investigation of benghazi and clinton, to begin later this year. >> reporter: is that another reason not to run? >> no, actually. >> reporter: too much. >> actually, it's more of a reason to run, because i do not believe our great country should be playing minor league ball. we ought to be in the majors. and i view this as -- really -- apart from, even a diversion from the hard work that the congress should be doing about -- the problems facing our country and the world. >> reporter: when are you going to decide whether you're running for president? >> you know, i'm going to decide when it feels right for me to decide. because -- >> reporter: still by the end of this year? >> well, you know, certainly not before then. i just wanna kind of get through this year, travel around the country, help in the midterm elections in the fall, and then

take a deep breath and kind of go through my pluses and minuses about what i will and -- and will not be thinking about as i make the decision. >> reporter: but probably not an announcement till next year? i'm not positive about that, but that's probably likely. >> reporter: and as we sat together, so many other topics including an old story that has resurfaced, an essay by monica lewinsky. we will talk about that tonight. i also asked what she would give from her vantage point to a younger generation. >> do what is necessary to be resilient. you know, life is filled with disappointments. and, you know, i've had a blessed life. i mean, sure i have had disappointments and setbacks and all the rest of it. and it's all played out in public for the second half of my life. but everybody does. i respect anyone who when they're knocked down, gets back up. and it's really about just that. and i learned that from my

mother who had a really horrible childhood and was so mistreated and neglected and abused and could've become a whiner, a quitter in life. and she didn't. she kept coming back and she told me, she said you know, you can be knocked down 8 times, 10 times, 100 times. what matters is whether you get back up." >> "hard choices" in stores tomorrow and tonight our hillary clinton public and private. no questions off limits. her marriage, monica lewinsky's life, what she did and didn't accomplish as secretary of state and what happened with her one- time rival barack obama. watch tonight at 9:00 eastern. hope you'll be joining us. we move to the other big story of the day. the attack in las vegas. two shooters, a husband and wife, targeting police. tonight for the first time we are studying their faces and the shadowy world that may have fueled their rampage. abc's ryan owens with what we're

learning right now. >> reporter: faces of hate. jared and amanda miller. he was 31. she just 22. police say they were heavily armed and bent on murdering police. >> we believe that they equate government and law enforcement with fascism. >> reporter: at 11:22 sunday morning, the young couple entered this pizza restaurant and ambushed two police officers as they ate lunch. they killed both men, draping their bodies with a "don't tread on me" flag, pinning a swastika on them and a note that read, "the revolution has begun." they took the officers' guns and ran to this wal-mart. five minutes later at 11:27, an armed civilian confronted them. amanda miller shot and killed him. then as police moved in, the couple carried out a suicide pact. some of the couple's closest friends say they talked about killing cops all the time. but no one bothered to call police.

in april the millers joined the standoff against federal agents at cliven bundy's cattle ranch. here's jared talking to an nbc affiliate. >> i feel sorry for any federal agents that want to come in here and try to push us around. >> reporter: tonight bundy's son said the couple was asked to leave because jared miller was quote, very radical. here's his facebook post. the dawn of a new day, may all our coming sacrifices be worth it. the real sacrifice, three innocent people murdered. joseph wilcox and police officers alan beck and igor saldo. both husbands and fathers. ryan owens, abc news, las vegas. tonight the parents of the american p.o.w., bowe bergdahl are expressing gratitude for the prayers and kindness from families across the country. while 7,500 miles away the five taliban fighters are enjoying their new life in qatar.

tonight questions are still raging over the deal and abc's chief investigative correspondent brian ross is there in qatar looking for answers. >> reporter: as the five taliban leaders settle in here, amidst the opulence of a country with the highest per capita income in the world, the supposedly will be monitored by a government with an already spotty record for dealing with terrorism. even so, the u.s. says it will rely on the promises of qatar's 34-year-old amir. amir would not talk about the deal when approached today by abc news at a conference where he was praised by a top u.s. state department official. >> the deal could not have been achieved without the government of qatar's diplomatic offices. >> reporter: in the state department's recent report on terrorism, it is highly critical on how qatar has monitored terrorists fundraisers operating in their country who steer money

to al qaeda groups and others. >> we have had their word they will not support al qaeda- related groups but they have in at least three countries. >> reporter: while sergeant bowe bergdahl recovers from his captivity in a cage, the five free taliban detainees will join a long list of u.s. enemies who have been welcomed here with open arms. the taliban has its own government provided villa here. no one answered when we went to the door to ask what they plan to do now that they are free. hello? abc news. >> reporter: qatar has asked the taliban five to keep a low profile. officials tell abc news they work with the u.s. to arrange for the release of more taliban detainees in american custody. brian ross, abc news, qatar. back here at home. the big new headline about the growing scandal at va hospitals. we learn how many veterans are

waiting for the care they need, many never getting appointments at all. abc's jim avila on the new developments tonight. >> reporter: families of veterans have complained loudly. sonja nicastro's husband died after a 15 month wait to see a va doctor. >> it was impossible to get an appointment at the va. all he got was run around. >> reporter: and now the va's own internal audit report released today confirms an outrageous 57,000 veterans have been waiting to see doctors for more than three months 100,000 suffering what is described as long waits. and schedulers at 90 clinics across the country admit they cooked the books to make it the va audit calls the deception widespread and overt. >> the most infuriating was exactly how systematic and how widespread it was. >> reporter: the va said it had contacted 50,000 veterans to get them off the wait lists and to

see a doctor. >> reporter: on a visit to the phoenix va where the scandal began, the new interim secretary promised a total reset. >> this is not what our veterans deserve this will not stand. >> reporter: the white house promising everything from firing senior administrators at offending hospitals to hiring more doctors. jim avila, abc news, the white house. tonight much of the country is facing the threat of severe weather. 18 million people in the storm zone after a weekend of flood, hail, tornados. waiting to see what this night will bring. abc's steve osunsami has it now. >> reporter: it was a dark morning for families in fate, texas where nearly six inches of rain and damaging winds ripped through homes and poked holes in roofs. in the northeast, flooding rains. a mom and five kids had to be saved from rising water. >> and we could have just gone down if we would have gone outside by ourselves. >> reporter: here's the storm system that's on the move, brining what looked like winter

into new mexico sunday. that's not ice. that's hail. sunday's tornado in lake george, colorado was quite a shock. tornados are rare at 10,000 feet because mountain air is col and much more stable, but this one managed to rip through an r.v. park. today they're still cleaning up after a tornado hit obion county tennessee. >> all these trees in the backyard, it uprooted them. >> reporter: reported or confirmed tornadoes have hit 28 out of the last 34 days including everyday this month so far. steve osunsami, abc news, atlanta. now a new twist to the story that erupted over the weekend. california chrome losing his chance at the triple crown. one of his owners losing his cool on live tv ranting about the winner and snapping at his wife. now, apologizing. here's abc's ryan smith. >> reporter: an emotional mea culpa from the owner of california chrome. >> i need to apologize to the world and america. i apologize. i sincerely apologize.

>> reporter: speaking to robin roberts on "good morning america," steve coburn, with his wife carolyn by his side, regretting his heated remarks on live tv after his horse came up short for the racing's crown jewel, the triple crown. coburn, slammed the winning horse, totalist, for running just the belmont stakes, not the kentucky derby; and the preakness like california chrome. >> this is a coward's way out. >> i know it's a tough loss. we hope to see him down the road. >> reporter: on sunday, coburn trying to make a point that horses should run all races. using an example that dug himself an even deeper hole. >> that would be like me at 62 playing basketball with a kid in a wheelchair. >> i wanted so much for this horse to win the triple crown for the people of america. >> reporter: he apologized to his wife too, and she hopes california chrome's legacy, not her husband's mistake, lives on. >> our story has given so much

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"hazel" -- who laughed and loved and lived with cancer came from john green's bestseller "the fault in our stars" which had its own inspiration. someone named esther earl -- who was not hazel because esther was real. she was a girl and then she grew and then she got sick with cancer. she met john green when he was an already famous author. and she was a fan. >> she was an amazing kid. she was really thoughtful and very funny. >> reporter: he says it was that spirit in esther to inspire him to invent hazel and her insight. and to know it might not happen, what do you say to that? her videos made her a celebrity online. >> i'm not always amazing and i'm not always strong and i'm not always brave and you guys should know that. >> john says ester taught him a short life can be a good life.

he's right. >> reporter: it was short. esther died almost four years ago at 16. never seeing what she inspired, this -- a movie her mom told us she would have loved. this kid, this young woman who did not get to go past young. john donvan, abc news, washington. esther's parents said they think she might have seen the movie twice. don't forget our hillary >> breaking news, we're live with a search for a woman and her two children, missing after a man is found dead. >> a freak accident claims the live of a 2-year-old visitor to fisherman's wharf. >> oakland mayor jean quan offering proof she was not on the phone when this happened.

tonight, there is a witness to back up the story. >> and a former college basketball player taking the ncaa to court in oakland. >> authorities searching for a east bay woman missing along with her three children after the father was found shot to death at the house. this is the mother her 12-year-old son, and two other children are missing. joins. >> tonight abc7 news reporter lillian kim is live with the latest on the search. lillian? >> reporter: the unidentified father of three found shot to death just before 8:00 a.m . police are now trying to find his three children and their mother. the 35-year-old is nowhere to be found she lives in a different

residence. police aren't calling her a suspect but believe locating her is critical in this case. investigators say she's not married to the father and it's unclear what custody arrangement they've had. hu hugo ortez is the oldest. the third child is two years old their father fwound a fatal gunshot wound in front of his house he lives in a mother-in-law unit behind a main house on 16th street. his neighbors called police as soon as they discovered the body. we've had a homicide we don't know why the individual was murdered. there are children what aren't there and the mother is gone. that is somewhat suspicious. haven't she's a suspect in this case. she's someone we need to locate.